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The Angel has Fallen
Created on 2003-06-26 18:22:08 (#1144231), last updated 2003-09-19
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Basic Info| Name: | Thin Mint |
|---|---|
| Birthdate: | 06-07 |
| Location: | Houston, Texas, United States |
BioThis is a journal for me to talk about things like my diet, my weight, and my eating disorders.
Six years ago I was bulimic. Recently I've relapsed. I know this is a bad thing, but right now, it's what I want. I know that I shouldn't, but at this time in my life, I don't want or have the control to stop it.
Please don't come here and tell me that it's wrong, because I already know that. In fact, I often feel like a hypocrit, because I help talk my friends away from EDs, while I myself have been falling prey to one of them.
I may eventually talk about why I relapsed, I probably will, but right now I don't feel like getting into that either.
I'm also on the Atkins Diet. I want to lose weight, although that is not the reason for my relapse, it is a contributing fact.
And finally, no, this isn't my only journal, and no, I don't wish to share where that is. I don't want people in my life to know about this and I don't want to associate the two journals. Beyond that, everything else I say i honesty. I don't think that anyone that knows me would come here anyway, nor would they figure things out, but that's me. Please understand.
I guess right now I just need support. I need someone to understand that I know I shouldn't fall back into this and that I should be strong, but that I don't want to. And that scares me too, because my ED friends say the same thing and yet I strive to help them recover. I don't want to see them feel the way I felt six years ago, and the way I've been feeling as of late.
Six years ago I was bulimic. Recently I've relapsed. I know this is a bad thing, but right now, it's what I want. I know that I shouldn't, but at this time in my life, I don't want or have the control to stop it.
Please don't come here and tell me that it's wrong, because I already know that. In fact, I often feel like a hypocrit, because I help talk my friends away from EDs, while I myself have been falling prey to one of them.
I may eventually talk about why I relapsed, I probably will, but right now I don't feel like getting into that either.
I'm also on the Atkins Diet. I want to lose weight, although that is not the reason for my relapse, it is a contributing fact.
And finally, no, this isn't my only journal, and no, I don't wish to share where that is. I don't want people in my life to know about this and I don't want to associate the two journals. Beyond that, everything else I say i honesty. I don't think that anyone that knows me would come here anyway, nor would they figure things out, but that's me. Please understand.
I guess right now I just need support. I need someone to understand that I know I shouldn't fall back into this and that I should be strong, but that I don't want to. And that scares me too, because my ED friends say the same thing and yet I strive to help them recover. I don't want to see them feel the way I felt six years ago, and the way I've been feeling as of late.
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